Take Away the Black Clouds

What did I ever do to warrant day after day of bad things happening to me or my family? Honest, I wake up most days a happy person, a person wanting the day to go great or at least nothing bad to happen, and then, it does! Anybody who has followed my blog knows that this past year and a half have been bad for the Bloom's. Today Barry took his first Microsoft test, and he didn't pass! It is very, very hard and many of our friends who have taken it don't pass on the first try, but after all this time of school and studying, Barry really felt he had what it would take to make it. I think I was more upset then him. I really was crushed under the weight of him not passing. Not taking one step closer to finding a job. You'd think that I would have had enough stuff to deal with at that, but NO says the God's that be! Tonight we went to have dinner with Evan and when we were leaving his place, Barry noticed at one of his head light was out! Normally that wouldn't be such a disaster, but because we have about 7 bucks to our name, I honestly don't know what we'll do! How we'll continue to live is a mystery to me. I know I've talked all week about being at the end of my road, but today maybe really is. No, nothing like ending it all. I do have a lot to live for, but how does a person continue to put one foot in front of the other again and again. It seems that when ever I have the slightest bit of hope, it's gone in a flash. I keep applying for jobs that don't exist or if they do, there not "for" me. It's tough when even Walmart isn't hiring now. I know when you come to my blog you expect to see pretty cards and happy talk about my sons, grandchildren and even the new puppy. They're all still there, but today it's about me. It's about my needs, not even my wants. Power ball is coming to TX this weekend. It's a shame I don't even have the $ to play!
Come back again tomorrow. Maybe something good will happen. Maybe someone will think I'm a worthy cause!
Hugs,
P